It always be a one side treatment.like forever.
Men can go out and get drunk wit their friends. They can go out drunk and get to know other drunk girls. They can get drunk and have fun drinking games wit other drunk girls.
I am not a dumbass ok.
Don't treat me like one.
Sometimes i feel like giving up everything.
And that includes my r/ship.
I dnt feel secure at all.
I hate this feeling of insecurities.
As if anytime. I could be alone then im back to square one.
I have to protect my heart. Its been abused for too long that i am scared it will bleed again.
He met me when he was still in a r/ship. Then things happened. So no more old gf. But will does he that to me too. Its kinda hard to put that trust bck in my head when ive gone through such an abusive r/ship for a very long time before. And now. This new guy.
Ahh i dnt know. I still hv my doubts even tho i tried hard to mend my own heart and minfucked myself in the head that im gonna give love a chance again. But to trust in an another whole new level.
Today. I read sum shitty stuff. How the hell am i supposed not to be doubtful again?
If he doesnt wanna be cruel and hurt his ex why is he not wit her then?
And he said that i had helped him escape from his ex, does he really love me?
And the only main reason he puts me as his gf in fb is because he doesnt want his ex to pester him anymore.
I feel shittier now.
I think ive been patience enuf.
I am not a getaway holiday. I have feelings too.
This is too depressing to contemplate about.
