Saturday, 31 December 2011
The Book of ADJM
Whether its good or not, well, I've gone thru hell, suffered, broken to nothingness, I was at my lowest of lows. I was in the pit of hell hole.
However, regardless of what had happened in the previous years, I believe, we can't be in the shit bottom forever rite? sure there will be a phase, where we will rise again.
Its like this super fucked up wheel of life (watever spiritual shit u would called it la..)
I tried to be optimistic that my fucked up situation would be better someday, not sure when, but deep in my mind & heart, I always knew that it will be better somehow. Even tho, I fuckin hate waiting for the time to come, but I accepted the fact that we can't get anything we want in life with snap of fingers. That's juz stupid, unless u are some rich dude or bloody rich arab oil tauke. -_-
I am not religious. I make fun of the higher power more than once. But I am spiritual.
Well I admit, God does exist (somewhere out there), I'm not all satanic 24-7, btw thats juz gimmick (I'm not normal).
I'm kinda thankful to the people up there, who has been looking out for me since 18 April 1983.
Well, they didn't actually write in "The Life of Audrey Debra" for me to become someone massively great or I invented the Playstation or Twitter or Facebook.
I didn't have nice cleavage (-_-) or super bubble butt or perfect skin or to-die-for hair. But they did give me nice parents, family & to-die-for bestfriends, which I wouldn't know where would I be without their undying, unconditional love, support & patience towards me.
Its one of the things that (seriously) money can't buy. Its priceless.
Recently, the 'upper people' did manage to insert a new chapter in my so-called 'book'.. Well, as I was saying in the earlier part of this entry. It was fated. The 4 letter word (NOT the 4 letter 'vulgar' word, its the other word, the emomantic ones, got it?), that actually crushed me to pieces before, funnily enuf has made its way back to my heart & grow steadily in each & every beat.
As much as I tried to avoid it. I built like adamantium walls (is this how u spelled, the metal they used for wolverine's claw? OK watever la) to protect myself. Like no joke ok.
Finally, I succumbed to my defeat, it was too hard to resist. The temptations was too great.
In order to achieve greatness, there are risks involved. Like how would you know that ur great at something, til u try it on ur own rite? I think that I would probably be a great porn director if I was given a chance. Wahahahaha. Ok that was random. -_-
So I've decided, I'm gonna take a big risk this year, stop being such a pussy. I'm gonna keep u in my pocket.
I'm welcoming 2012 with arms wide open & giving 2011 double mid fingers.
FUCK OFF & DIE HATERS.
Friday, 30 December 2011
First To Die
I no longer want to be just an option or an alternative.
Been there and done that.
It hurts.
So no thank you.
Tuesday, 27 December 2011
Sunday, 25 December 2011
Thursday, 22 December 2011
Wednesday, 21 December 2011
FUFU
I want flawless skin.
I want cheese.
I want salmon sushi.
I want platinum blonde hair.
I want more tattoos.
I WANT CHEEK PIERCINGS.
I want to live in Zurich.
I want a pitbull dog.
I want enlarged lobes.
I want free dough.
I want to sleep on my bed rite now.
I want to slap people.
I want to jump like a kangaroo.
I want to be Princess Dolphin.
I want more varsity jackets.
I want a pair of red doc marts.
I want blueberry cheese cake.
I want rough sex.
I want to cuddle you all nite long.
I want to cycle in circles til i get bored.
I want to be Alice in the Wonderland.
I want hand tattoos.
I want neck tattoos.
I want to kick Bruce Willis's balls.
I want to marry Johnny Depp.
I want a collection of hard cover classic literature.
I want a comfy bed.
I want to dance naked under the rain.
Smokey Eyes
Owly Baby
Tuesday, 20 December 2011
Happy Xmas!
Hello Pussy
Planet Bullshit
Monday, 19 December 2011
Crazy Pipai
Stupid Fat Kid
I just find it stupid for a physically healthy (well, if he can happily walks around the bus station requesting for money means his ok aite) asking me for my hard-earned dough.
Eh fuck off. Call me ice cold mean bitch, but hello.. theres a lot of unfortunate people in this world, who was born without limbs still managed to be independent and hardworking individuals, contributes to the society like all of us, rather than walking around the city, taking advantage of others' empathy to earn easy money.
Fat dude probably used that money to buy himself a Big Mac anyways.
#maderfarker
























