The Book of ADJM

Sometimes, there are things that we can't explained. For some weird reasons, it was fated, it was meant to be & the shittiest was.. As everyone would say, "SHIT HAPPENS".

Whether its good or not, well, I've gone thru hell, suffered, broken to nothingness, I was at my lowest of lows. I was in the pit of hell hole.

However, regardless of what had happened in the previous years, I believe, we can't be in the shit bottom forever rite? sure there will be a phase, where we will rise again.
Its like this super fucked up wheel of life (watever spiritual shit u would called it la..)
I tried to be optimistic that my fucked up situation would be better someday, not sure when, but deep in my mind & heart, I always knew that it will be better somehow. Even tho, I fuckin hate waiting for the time to come, but I accepted the fact that we can't get anything we want in life with snap of fingers. That's juz stupid, unless u are some rich dude or bloody rich arab oil tauke. -_-

I am not religious. I make fun of the higher power more than once. But I am spiritual.
Well I admit, God does exist (somewhere out there), I'm not all satanic 24-7, btw thats juz gimmick (I'm not normal).

I'm kinda thankful to the people up there, who has been looking out for me since 18 April 1983.
Well, they didn't actually write in "The Life of Audrey Debra" for me to become someone massively great or I invented the Playstation or Twitter or Facebook.
I didn't have nice cleavage (-_-) or super bubble butt or perfect skin or to-die-for hair. But they did give me nice parents, family & to-die-for bestfriends, which I wouldn't know where would I be without their undying, unconditional love, support & patience towards me.
Its one of the things that (seriously) money can't buy. Its priceless.

Recently, the 'upper people' did manage to insert a new chapter in my so-called 'book'.. Well, as I was saying in the earlier part of this entry. It was fated. The 4 letter word (NOT the 4 letter 'vulgar' word, its the other word, the emomantic ones, got it?), that actually crushed me to pieces before, funnily enuf has made its way back to my heart & grow steadily in each & every beat.

As much as I tried to avoid it. I built like adamantium walls (is this how u spelled, the metal they used for wolverine's claw? OK watever la) to protect myself. Like no joke ok.

Finally, I succumbed to my defeat, it was too hard to resist. The temptations was too great.

In order to achieve greatness, there are risks involved. Like how would you know that ur great at something, til u try it on ur own rite? I think that I would probably be a great porn director if I was given a chance. Wahahahaha. Ok that was random. -_-

So I've decided, I'm gonna take a big risk this year, stop being such a pussy. I'm gonna keep u in my pocket.

I'm welcoming 2012 with arms wide open & giving 2011 double mid fingers.
FUCK OFF & DIE HATERS.